I'm writing this after coming off an unbelieveably shitty weekend. Let's see..my FSH level is at 14 and I have no insurance benefits to cover in vitro, given that Colorado's legislators don't give a fuck about infertility, unlike Illinois and Maryland and several other states that MANDATE COVERAGE.
Top that off with a friend who HAD benefits who had in vitro twice who is about to have a daughter and the news that another friend is now due in May and frankly, I've fucking had it.
I'm going to write here what others may not want to say...just put it out there.
What the hell did I ever do to the universe that everyone in the Western world is apparently knocked up?
My brother is a doctor and has literally said "Any idiot can push out a baby. " This is true.
My husband and I have often said that were we on the dole, sucking off the public teet and on welfare, we'd easily have had 20 kids by now. It seems the universe and karma don't reward responsible family planning.
So here we are....All our friends are having babies and we??? We work with an acupuncturist and wait.
Infertility sucks.......and frankly, those who haven't experienced it don't give a shit.
They really don't. My friends are all supportive but hey, they're all gonna have
kids soon and do I want to go to their homes?
No..I don't.
So I don't know what we'll do as the baby train moves along the track as we watch it pull away....
Infertility sucks. Don't you think?
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Hey Audrey!
Thanks for your comment on my blog. Yes, I too have to pay for our IF treatment out of pocket. Yes, it does SUCK but what is our other choice? We do what we can and pray that it works. In the mean time we've got eachother to vent to and support. So I'm here for you chicka! Vent away!
Thank you ladies! Please visit often---we're all on this "journey" together and I love you call it the club no one wants to join.
The reason I started this blog is that I can vent and I don't want to hurt my friends and can't say these things to them---it would make them feel bad I'd imagine and just really isn't fair....
I know they're sympathetic but in the end, they are having babies and that is their main concern...
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